Allow Me To Reintroduce Myself
People will always try and define you on terms most convenient to them. In ways that allow them to judge themselves less critically. They will minimize all you’ve accomplished and maximize all they haven’t even started yet. The good news is their definitions or perceptions of you don’t matter, only yours counts.
The more difficult part and the element most don’t seem to get is you can’t define yourself with words. True definition is gained through actions, consistent ones. People lie to themselves and then to others every fucking day but numbers usually tell a truer story. I’ve always been a bigger fan of facts and figures than self forged fiction and fantasy.
Most people see themselves as the hero of their own story yet act in such a way that suggests anything but. Always daydreaming of what they oughta’ do rather than just starting. Afraid to suck at something publicly temporarily, failing to recognize that is exactly where the road to mastering a craft begins.
You are the only thing standing in your way of the life you want to create for yourself. Your fear of the unknown is not different than when a child is afraid of the dark or the boogeyman, both are equally irrational.
Don’t believe your own bullshit, good or bad. Don’t listen to others bullshit or waste time on their small ideas and conversation. To gossip about others is the surest sign you have nothing going on for yourself. You wouldn’t have time to throw dirt on the names of people whose hands you have the nerve to shake if you had anything positive going on in your own life. The two simply don’t go hand in hand and can’t inhabit the same home nor originate in the same mind.
Negative thoughts, whether about yourself or others is a waste of headspace and energy.
Focus on the good and I promise more of it shows up. If you constantly look for a reason to be miserable, you will always find one. Nobody gives a shit if you walk around pouting about every minor inconvenience, they just stop answering your calls and inviting you places.
Oppose the untrue perceptions others have of you with integrable actions, not words filled with ego. I’m grateful I finally learned I have nothing to prove to anyone, I know who I am and my track record speaks for me. I don’t need a reputation to precede me, I show up and let my actions do the talking for me. I don’t speak it, I live it.
I’m not the hero of my story, I’m too compelled to tell the truth today.
I do my best to call it like I see it and tell it like I remember it. If you remember it different, it’s because you saw it through different eyes.
I’ve reinvented myself from top to bottom so many times that starting from scratch has become a tiresome task. Every time someone feels as though they have me thoroughly defined, I know I have more work to do. Because nobody gets to define or categorize me, except me.
