Here’s Why I’m Qualified To Write About Mental Health Issues
I’ve lived with them, around them, endured my own and others as well as tried to treat them, by any means necessary, my entire life.
Warning: I will be divulging deeply personal information and family experiences in this piece. If you’re related to me, and have a hard time processing and taking in hard facts and truths, skip this one. Or don’t. Maybe try facing reality as it is, rather than how we all wish it was, but never will be.
My first real memory, was one from when I was about five years old. I had a doctor’s appointment, literally down the street from the apartment My Father, Mother and I shared, until that day.
Even at five, I was half neurotic and anxiety-ridden. I kept telling my Mom we were going to be late for the doctor's appointment. Then, I couldn’t find her. Eventually, I did, in the bathroom, drinking directly out of a rubbing alcohol bottle. At age five, I kindly informed her that was for boo-boos, not drinking. She knew that but what I didn’t know and couldn’t have possibly understood at five, was her disease didn’t. Or maybe it did and wanted to kill her. By the grace of God, she lived. However, it was the last time she’d ever be allowed back in what was once our apartment, without my Father there. The relationship was done. He felt she put the one thing he cared about more than anything in the world, which was me, at risk, and wouldn’t allow her the potential opportunity to do so again.
I remember going to see her in the hospital, angry as my Dad was he took me to see her while she was there and to this day thirty years later I don’t think I’ve ever heard him speak an ill word of her in front of me, it’s who he is.
Being we went to see her in the hospital, I knew that meant she was sick. The older I got, the worst her drinking got, and I eventually followed my family's footsteps by picking up a drink and a drug early.
However, I’m happy to tell you my mother finally stopped drinking on August 17th, 2021, and I’m sober myself today as well, with the help of so many people, including her whether she knows it or not.