The best exchange I ever made was trading in endless impending doom for a glimmer of hope. Letting go of anger gave me a life again. Not allowing resentment to reside in me any longer restored me in a way I couldn’t have paid cash for. Leaving my ego out of it and remembering where I came from has helped me rise so far beyond where and who I thought i’d ever be.
Hell is a place I’ve seen and walked through. God is the night I should have died and didn’t. I am a miracle in every sense of the word so I don’t even have a right not to believe in them. I don’t argue with others today because there is no inner conflict going on in me. However I do stand and speak up for what I believe in today because I actually have beliefs. Ones I do my best to live by on a daily basis.
I walked around so angry for so long and never quite being able to pinpoint exactly why only served to make me that much angrier. I’ve come to learn that it is easier to say we are angry than it is that we’re afraid. Just like it’s easier for me to say we than it is I. Because I was and at the end of the day we all are or have been. Anyone who tells you they haven’t is either lying or insane. The person you think has their shit all figured out,doesn’t. Ask them.
I made it through the worst of days and I amend that by making the best of the days I have left. I don’t waste time looking back, at least not in bitterness. I value my time more than that today. I’ve come to realize that people have a tendency to talk to themselves in ways they’d never allow someone else to speak to them. I don’t allow anyone to speak down to me today, including me. It was never really death I was ever afraid of, it was life that terrified me.