Notes From The Scenic Route To Finally Going All The Way

Life’s never been one thing and never will be, nor will we.

I don’t mean to sound like a pretentious arrogant prick but most of Bukowski’s best advice came naturally to me before I ever heard of dude. I couldn’t wrap my mind around the kids in my class who struggled with the most basic writing assignments. I didn’t get it. I assumed they didn’t enjoy it and simply refused.

Come to find out, I’m just better than, well — many people who have tried their hand at this as well as many who still do regularly. I don’t do a lot well, but I know when I'm good at something or it comes more naturally to me, mainly because I’m a human with a fully formed brain and a hyper sense of self-awareness. for better or worse. I know what I am, as well as what I am not and never will be. I’m a hundred percent sure of what I do and don't want. I’m somehow even more sure than that if I give this and the life I do want my full attention, focus, and dedication — there is no telling what my life could potentially look like in five years.

And I’ve seen far too many people spend damn near the same half of a decade talking about what they were going to do, you know when circumstances were perfect and some figment of their imagination their fear created gives them permission to. You’d have a better chance of convincing the general public that Kanye West “has a lot of good points and is just misunderstood”. Nobody’s signing your fucking permission slip, because nobody’s required to. You only need your own approval or permission to pursue the life you want to live. Not the one you’ve been brainwashed to believe we all should want and there’s something wrong with us if we don’t. That’s bullshit, and the bullshitters know it. They still sell it by the boatload, to the masses, through media, social norms, and disappointed family members whose opinions you overvalue.

People who bought into being afraid to go even some of the way or even worse, let their irrational fears stop them from even trying to start. Start whatever it is or was they once wanted to do, be it art of some sort or just travel a certain part of the country or world even — whatever. We’re all entitled to very little when it comes to the harsh realities that tend to make up such a…